As Death

by Nahja Mora

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“As death, when we come to consider it closely, is the true goal of our existence, I have formed during the last few years such close relationships with this best and truest friend of mankind that death's image is not only no longer terrifying to me, but is indeed very soothing and consoling.” - WA Mozart

"As Death is a difficult listen, even for those who favor styles of industrial that blend sophisticated songwriting with unrelenting production. With longtime associates like Mettee, Hobart Blankenburg, and Hemlock MacNamara, Saint’s skills at crafting tracks that yield inviting melodies amid repellent clamor are quite apparent throughout the band’s oeuvre, taken to an extreme on As Death that results in some of his sharpest and actually quite beautiful moments amid others that will require a lot of patience and desire to penetrate. " - ReGen Mag


released September 14, 2018

all songs written, arranged, programmed, and performed by josef saint
except crystal rot hybrid: written by josef saint and jenny rae mettee

jenny rae mettee performs fretless bass on: the medium (version); crystal rot hybrid; this is not hopelessness; all (destroyed); retribution (edit)

jenny rae mettee performs synthesizer on crystal rot hybrid

hobart blankenburg performs synthesizer an sampler on: seeming form; the medium (version); crystal rot hybrid; this is not hopelessness; like wolves; retribution (edit)

hobart blankenburg performs guitar on seeming form

hemlock mcnamara performs keyboards on all (destroyed)

recorded at the injury box baltimore 2017-2018
produced by nahja mora
mastered by eric oehler at submersible studios
unter null appears courtesy of alfa matrix records

© 2018 nahja mora

all (destroyed) in memory of Ric Laciak
pouring glass in memory of Arkhady Terry


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Track Name: away to shadow
thoughts creep to
bag my head
tie my ankles bind my hands
make my sternum clap
as i walk the plank i slip into the river.

bound, broken
nothing can bring me further from here
the bottom is the bottom
lower ground is gone
if i keep my head the thoughts will lose.

seams give

when the bitter taints your tongue
and the lights blind your eyes
it will silently move around you
and settle into the dark
you're not going to like it when you wake
you can trust me on that
you can try to run but it will
grab at your ankles and drag you to its den
once you fall

it's coming back again
it's coming back again

i've drowned in my use again
covered in gashes from what i've done
some things you can never put down
bleeding out, bleeding out, bleeding out
Track Name: the medium (version)
do you speak?
yes, i am planning to but not right now
to play dead so many obligations must be met.
i said, "play dead"
i said, "come home."

look at me, i crumble like chalk,
i sometimes wish and then he rots
it all goes so wrong

unrequited once, i checked my list
and imagine you laugh with a wire to talk
happenstance always allots for many things to go wrong

but still, many obligations must be met

so he tried and they watched and he failed
and they left him
so now the tempest tells him, "play dead."

"and for lack of what is best, falter not
remember what skulks and shall stalk:
it seeps through marrow while sleep amidst,
Betrayed, you'll never account for this!"

play dead.
Track Name: crystal rot (hybrid)
i used to sleep in dreams, you know
kiss you like feathers
i turned my back on all that
said i always wanted to
i used to find wonder and light
definition sublime

tides they come and go
can't shake off this cold
shadows only tease me
silhouettes are only dreams
silently, surely, it all rots away

reflection in my eyes is hollow now
so stale, too gone

it's not fair now
all the things you wanted are buried in the dirt

the time is now, do you feel it,
the king is dead, can you stand,
this is the time, rise up,
poise your force, will it, make it real
tell your truth, kill them all
kill them dead
throw it all away

way in the back of the space again
in the hole where i keep all my violence
thinking hard on the river and
why i let myself drown. foster the growth
just to cut it out of the body in a veneered
display of simple avoidance
as if that ever was the way forward,
it's just the way to die.

but maybe
that's what i'm after
is it what i'm after?
maybe so
i just, i just
i don't have the answer
i just
the load.
Track Name: this is not hopelessness
it's all wrong
watch it burn

centipede falls from your mouth,
pick up your jaw
with your shattered point
turn your head around
look back, step back
every nuance of soul

answer to the angles
relate your fuzzy math
the warning's in the air
i am aftermath

we bite in
we cut that wound
we watch it bleed
and die.

something dangerous seems somewhat damaged
territorial pissings of this animal lack viciousness

reduct, replay, reductive

i don't think you get it
but i'll stick around
kicking in your head
just to kick in your head

this is not hopelessness
is it?
Track Name: like wolves
thanks for making this cat always cry for food
if forgotten this lie will remember
to never let this go

from porcelain insincerity
two pointless messengers
always can supply empty promises

words away and seconds pass
days burn on, now hours last
ill-begotten text, a rapecamp on paper,
bonds a liar's crop to your words

heavens glare in a pool of disease
like wolves hiding in pillows
you'll struggle to close
the wounds.

broken and constant, you can't pull the knife out
alone and collapsing, watching your bed burn
watching it all fall
there's no facing forward, there's no way back now
there's no explanation
you're just dying

you can't gain a foothold, it's all going faster
and you're moving slower
there's no excuse now, there's no more reason
it's just what you wanted
i guess.

drowning, sorry, falling, blinded
drowning, sorry, falling, faster
drowning, sideways, crashing, faster
drowning, darker, crashing, apart

rest now
and forget
every part that tears
with every movement you make
it's not really there.

when the cheese fell from his mouth,
as the vulture ripped him in half,
"beautiful imagination, you're playing tricks on me again,"
the mouse thought.
then his eyes went out.
Track Name: retribution (edit)
Track Name: pouring glass
pictures in your head
of faces you knew
remember where you stood
when they let go

feel the weight set
sinking slow
all the things you had
all the shit preferred

wake up and check your phone
wake up and check your face
make sure you have enough gas

turn your radio off
roll your windows up
you try to get away but
trust me you won't.

dance on minefields
crawl through glass
attic players, drowning act
cutthroats, busted knees
blue leather, gasoline
off brand nicotine for
our martial schemes

monsters reading military tactics
empty corners
crystal ball joke.

dark knights dissolving
in darker rain
to nothing

there's nothing.

a world away
to where you've run
the weight of it all
on you

so i stand in the back
and i stay away
i keep busy
i wear a stain

you don't know what it's like
and you won't know that it's here
and there's nothing i can say
that could make this repaired

i wish i made the time
i wish i read that book
i wish, i wish
i wish you were still here.


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